Mother's Day

I had one of the best Mother's Day and one of the hardest Mother's Day. I'll start with the best. This was the first time in 7 years I was able to go to church with my mom. After church we all met up and ate together. Mom had all 4 of her kids with her and most of the grandkids and great grandkids. We had a great time. After we ate we went to dad and mom's and fished at the pond. I think everyone had such a great time.

Thanks mom for all you have done for me and all you continue to do for me. Thanks for being my mom and my best friend. I love you!

On the way to the farm to fish. Boyd, Me, Jessica andRyan

Kevin, Me, Jessica

Caleb on the phone with Uncle Boyd

My 3 brothers, Ron, Rob, and Kevin and nephews Ryan and Caleb

Dad in his lovely hat and my great nephew Trey

Trinity and Sheila sitting in the truck out of the rain.

Fishing on the pond bank.

5-7 years ago we put some goldfish in the pond and now they have grown huge. Bubby caught one.

Papa Kevin and Bryce with their big catch.

Ok, with the not so good Mother's Day. This year has been the hardest one for yet. Don't get me wrong, I'm VERY thankful I still have my mother because I know that a lot of people don't. But I want to be a mother so bad myself that it was hard to be in the service and have all the mother's recognized while I sat there with tears in my eyes, wanting so badly for my own children. I was visiting my brother's church and the gentleman did such a good job. He even brought up those who can't have children of their own and I completely lost it then. Then of course as we were walking out, there were people standing at the back to hand out "mother's day" bookmarks and books. I panicked. I looked for another way out the door, but couldn't find one. So I headed out the door and the little girl, bless her heart, she didn't know what I was feeling, started to hand me a book and I said no thank you, I'm not a mother. Well apparently my niece was close by, who told her mom what had happened and she came outside and gave me a hug and a book and told me that I would be a mom one day and that I was a mom to her kids. So more tears came. I just had a pity party that day, but got over it after a little while.

I am so blessed in many ways. I have such a loving husband, wonderful parents and extended family and great friends. One day, I will get my miracle. It may not be our own child, but maybe by adoption. I'll be thankful either way.

Please remember to pray for all those people who can't have their own kids or who have lost their children. Can't imagine what they are going through at this time.